Seven years have passed and by now you’re just a ghost
I’m trying to remember though your eyes have long been closed
The memory is fading and I guess that it’s supposed to
But every lost memory still feels like losing you

When I look into the mirror I see parts of you I know
My eyes are the same color and my hair has the same glow
And sometimes if I try hard enough I can still hear you speak
I can hear the strong voice you had before you got so weak

And for a moment I believe that you’re still with me as I move on
That you can see through these same eyes as you’re going along
But the twitch around my mouth and the little hints of fear
Serve to remind me that you’re no longer here

I have grieved you through every tear I shed
I have lived through countless moments of regret
The hole you left I will never fill
It’s been seven years and I miss you still

Daddy, my daddy, oh what did I know?
I was only a teen when I watched you go
Your goodbye left my heart with a crack
Daddy, my daddy, why can’t you come back?

It still scares me at times to know that you’re gone
The irreversibility of death can leave me stunned
Your power, your heart, all the knowledge you gained
Has now forever and beyond gone up in flames

The words that you left and the love that you passed
I am trying to look for a way to make them last
You can’t be forgotten, you’re too great a man
The memory’s fading but I do what I can

So I look at your pictures and into my own eyes
As I try to reach back to our painful goodbyes
And I can see myself, I can look at you
I can feel the pain in your heart and in mine too

I can see the pain in your eyes as you tell me to take care
Making me promise to look after myself when you’re no longer there
I can hear you tell me how much you love me and my heart still aches
And as I’m telling you the same I can feel how my voice breaks

You’re holding my hand as you’re fading away
Into a sleep in which you will stay
And for me, those were the last words you said
“I love you só much, you know that?”

I have grieved you through every tear I shed
I have lived through countless moments of regret
The hole you left I will never fill
It’s been seven years and I miss you still

Daddy, my daddy, oh what did I know?
I was only a teen when I watched you go
Your goodbye left my heart with a crack
Daddy, my daddy, why can’t you come back?


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The water in your eyes
Face turned to stone
Merciless lies
Cold to the bone

Hair as silk
Eyes of a child
Innocence in your tricks
Betrayal in your smiles

Your heart is an abandoned place
There is truth in the blank of your gaze
Feelings are strangers
And you don’t care about dangers

So you step forward as they step aside
And you betray the ones in which you confide
Not so much as the blink of an eye
As you sell them yet another lie

How did this cruelty get into you?
Once so innocent, pure and true
How did you get so far as to decide
That life would be better dead than alive?

Have you truly lost all faith
Is there not another way?
You may not be hurting yourself
But you’re a burden on everybody else

Some say that long ago you have tried
That you saw and hurt and that you cried
Until you could take nothing more
And you went away and closed the door

Fear has eaten you from the inside out
And your soul has screamed until it got too loud
The pain and the terror of the life you led
Have consumed you until you lost your head

So you went into a mode of defense
And you shut out all your family and friends
And you got used to being on your own
Until all emotions vanished into the unknown

And now you come and you bring the same
Upon whomever is tricked to play your games
The pain and the fear that consumed you
Are now the things you feed through

So you step forward as they step aside
And you betray the ones in which you confide
Not so much as the blink of an eye
As you sell them yet another lie

The water in your eyes
Face turned to stone
Merciless lies
Cold to the bone

Hair as silk
Eyes of a child
Innocence in your tricks
Betrayal in your smiles

Passing along your scars
I wonder if you still have a heart
But as you inflict on us the things that turned you to stone
I find myself sincerely hoping that you don’t.

 

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